the cruel answer

I apologize for not having posted for two weeks now. It is due to a massive change in my SL.


The addicted reader of my blog may remember my post Jerome having strong doubts about himself dated 14th May 2011. This day I wondered - quoting:

"Doubts arise in his head, if he is a worthy slave for his Lady, if he is able to serve her in a way she deservers it, if he deserves a Lady as she is.

Jerome hopes to find some answers on these agonising questions ... ."

Meanwhile I got the cruelest possible answer on this question: Jerome does not deserve a Lady like Lady Loes (triple fat exclamation mark)


I admit that when writing this, tears are running out of my eyes ... .


The situation turned out in a way, that I asked Lady Loes to unlock HER collar before she tears it off my neck. She accepted and I am not her slave anymore.


To be very honest, I never believed that my feelings and emotions were affected in a way, that I am infinitely sad since this happened. I let pass more than a week before I felt able to write this article.


Lady Loes, Jerome thanks you infinitely for having had the pleasure to serve you for nearly six months. You have been a most esteemed Lady - that of course you still are and will ever be - and a most gracious and patient Mistress with me. I miss you ... .

nice moments

today evening there was one of the rare moment Lady Loes' whole family was unified. Chas was helping Lady Loes to configure a throne for the TMS sim owner Madame Liz. Jerome tested the sub position.

Chas, Jerome, Lady Loes

Before she was leaving Lady Loes offered to Chas and Jerome a subhug. One of the moments that sl is really worth for :-)

Jerome subhugging Lady Loes and squeezing her neary too tightly

Tits and whips dance at TMS

Yesterday evening Jerome went together with his Lady Loes Shi and his sister Chas to a very nice dance event at The Mistresses sim: The "tits and whips" themed dance, organized by Madame Lizbeth Nimbus, the owner of the sim.

"tits and whips" dancefloor at "The Mistresses" sim

The outfits of the Ladies and of the boys were really beautiful, some even stunning. Guess who's Mistress had the sexiest one   :-)   ?

Madame Liz

Lady Ravenn

Lady Mystic, Ichi

Jerome, Lady Loes, Chas

Miss Ukania with superglued sign

Don

DJ Boy de Cuir did a really great job and everybody had big fun.

Boy de Cuir acrobatically dancing with Lady Jody

Jerome apologizes for not being able to put a picture of every Lady or boy. Their outfits weren't less impressive than the shown ones. They were just moving and dancing too fast for taking some nice pictures   :-)   .

Jerome having strong doubts about himself

Jerome in deep thoughts, sitting in his favourite place

Jerome is in deep doubts about himself.


He was starting a discussion with his Lady, that made her very angry and sad. Jerome understand this reaction and regrets it very much. He should have found a better way than to discuss in a very controversary way.

On the other hand Jerome often feels desperate and his efforts for his adored Lady do not reach her.

Doubts arise in his head, if he is a worthy slave for his Lady, if he is able to serve her in a way she deservers it, if he deserves a Lady as she is.

Jerome hopes to find some answers on these agonising questions ... .